Distractions
Once again the enemy has wormed his way into our lives. Very sneaky this time. Playing right to our giftings, my husband and I have found ourselves completely overwhelmed by taking every opportunity that "felt right" according to the gifts God has given us. And without realizing it we are now committed to doing church or ministry type of things every single day of the week!! We are DOING in the name of God, but what does God want us to be DOING? Our spiritual growth and momentum over the last 6 months has basically come to a stand still. In all of this activity we have lost sight of our relationship with Him.

I had a dream several weeks ago, I don't even remember anything about it. But when I woke up the verse "...you will run and not grow weary, you will walk and not faint" came right to mind. I thought that was a clear sign that I was to go forward with the latest opportunity in God's name that had come up....that even though I wasn't 100% sure about it, I should take the leap and He would strengthen me. Last week Monday I left the house at 6:30 AM and did not return until 9:30 PM except for a brief stop to pick up the kids. By the time the kids were in bed, I got showered and was ready to wrap up the day with my husband all I could do was sit on the edge of the bed and weep. I walked out to the living room and asked if he minded if I just went to bed - it was now about 10:30 PM. He asked what was wrong and all I could say was "I'm tired, I'm just tired." He said, "you don't cry just because you're tired. What's wrong?" again, all I could say was "I don't know. I'm just tired." By the time we got to the same time on Friday I had two more days just about the same schedule. My husband speculated that the episode on Monday might have been spiritual, that the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me something. That thought remained in my mind. Walking in the door from church on Sunday the same verse run thru my head "...you will run and not grow weary, you will walk and not faint". I laid down on the bed and asked God what it meant. The answer was very clear. That verse is a promise when you are walking in God's will. I was obviously NOT in His will. Ironically, the word weary was what I used several times during the week to describe the weeping incident to some close friends.....it then all made sense.